Desperation vs Inspiration: What Motivates you?

Deciding to walk the journey of entrepreneurship came very late for me…at least in my mind. It wasn’t until I turned 40 that this path became a possibility. Today, I am 41 (no shame here!) and I’m approaching my FIRST consistent year of business ownership! Now, for most people, they would be pretty excited about this accomplishment.

I have to remember to be excited about it…Let me explain why.

My past experiences included consistent moments of feeling inadequate, feeling the compulsion to prove my validity and value. What I have recently learned is that although I have overcome my limiting belief about starting a business, that ‘weed seed’ of doubt about my validity is still popping up. On my drive home from my 9-5 job, I had a major Divine download! It came in the form of a question, “Are you motivated to serve and build your business from a space of DESPERATION or INSPIRATION?”

I did not have an immediate answer…

Looking at myself briefly in the rear-view mirror, I knew the authentic answer…”I have been operating in desperation!” I then began to wonder why…what triggered this lack mindset to resurface? Here are 3 reasons I discovered:

Reason #1: My Vision


Recently, I have been observing many signs and communications around ‘lack’. Email, phone calls, regular mail. All painting a picture before me of lack and I began to internalize and mentally receive these images as my reality rather than seeing it outside of me.

Reason #2: My Energy Level


My emotions have been like a roller-coaster recently! Up one day and ready to take on the world! The next day, literally not wanting to leave the house! With low energy, you are pouring from an empty, depleted vessel. No good EVER comes from that!

Reason #3: My Time

appointment-clock-countdown-deadline-41364.jpeg“I am moving too slow!”

“I feel so far behind!”

“Why haven’t I created/built/made ______ yet?”

Whenever I begin to feel like I am on a hamster wheel going nowhere, I am operating from a space of desperation!

Discovering these triggers felt both encouraging and upsetting and being the recovering perfectionist, I totally get my duplicity. The fact that I was connected enough with God to receive this message and immediately receive it as an opportunity to growth and elevate was encouraging! (Yay me!)


Debbie Downer (my ego) walked through the proverbial door with her megaphone and cloud of gloom and doom, “But you should know this, Dawn! Why are you still dealing with this? (Boo, Debbie!)

Needless to say, I asked Debbie for her megaphone and told her to take a seat and hold her finger over her mouth! Then…I began to activate my toolkit! Here are the 3 tools I pulled out my Toolkit to guide me GENTLY back on track:

Tool #1: Affirmations that PENETRATE


Affirmations are great…but only if that crack open the hard shell of doubt and fear attempting to cover your heart and mind. For me, speaking words like, “I am good enough” would not cut it in this space of desperation. It would not be specific enough to grab that limiting belief by the collar and escort it out of my consciousness. Instead, I speak, “All the good that belongs to me by Divine Right can NEVER be taken from me! There is no lack in God’s Presence and God and I are one! Therefore, all obstacles move from my path immediately and permanently with grace!” Do you see the difference?

Tool #2: Accountability that ILLUMINATES


So, I phoned a friend! This may be a challenge for some people and I recognize that. Vulnerability can be a scary thing especially if you do not feel safe with the person you are bearing your wounds to. This is where I would STRONGLY suggest you evaluate your circle of friends and companions and begin to determine who are your Elevation Buddies and who needs to gracefully leave your life. Going into isolation when you are feeling low is a guaranteed recipe for condemnation and depression. You MUST allow someone you trust and respect to hold up a mirror before you and illuminate your truths! Don’t have Elevation Buddies? Now is the time to pray for them to appear on your path! (You could also join me in my private FB group called, Space to BE! I have a small group of ladies who are truly seeking more peace in their daily lives!)

Tool #3: Space that ELIMINATES


After a few accountability calls with my Elevation Buddies, I came home to my sacred space and sat down. My intention for this time of reflection and direction was to receive reminders of who I am and who I am desiring to be. This unique, private space in my home serves as my connection point between myself and God. When I step on my plush white carpet, I know that I will receive downloads that will impact my life in a major way. And I am NEVER disappointed! In my space, I have a full length mirror. This mirror shows me all there is within me that I would normally try to hide.  (Have you ever looked deeply into your own eyes and had a conversation? Try it and tell me your experience below.) As I looked at myself and thought about my future self, I began to hear clearly what has caused me to operate from a space of desperation rather than inspiration. With this information in hand, I could begin to shift my thoughts, change my actions and adjust my path forward.


Desperation – seeing, believing and internalizing the appearance of lack and scarcity in your life. You begin to think and act as though time is running out and you are not doing and receiving enough.

Inspiration – being so full of love, joy and peace that you overflow into the lives of other and touch a part of their souls that needed healing. You give from a full vessel because you desire to heal the world with little concern of what you will receive because you know and believe that YOUR portion of abundance and prosperity is already secured – whether you see it or not!

I’ve decided that I will not post, write, share or serve when I am in a space of desperation. My offering will not be authentic or healing. Those are the moments when I stop everything and head to my sacred space for restoration, direction and filling. Only then will I feel ready to touch the lives of others.

So, become aware of the source of your motivation as you navigate through this life. Many of us float between these 2 extremes and the shift from inspiration to motivation can be ever so slight. Honor the gift within you and do the work to discover your motivations.

Someone out there is waiting on you!

Peace and Love,




Power of Imagination

Last week, I experienced an amazing manifestation of an imagined thought. What was once only on a paper, became a realized dream right before my eyes. If you asked me a year ago if any of this was possible, I would have said, “For someone else, yes.” My belief muscle was so weak that any resistance would have caused me to coward away in fear. What a difference a year can make!!



I took a trip home to Brooklyn NY last weekend for an event hosted by my life coach. The topic of the event was Confidence. As I drove through Downtown Brooklyn, I started to remember the last time I walked those busy streets. My final year as a senior in high school was a challenging one. Finally heading out into the world on my own, ending a relationship of 2 years with my then boyfriend, still feeling incredibly insecure and self-conscious and not being fully convinced of my life’s path. That was a heavy load to carry with no real outlet to release it. It was me, God and my journal ( I still have days like that!) Needless to say, I was not a confident young lady and I had no idea just how dangerous that would be. The subsequent years would be spent in abusive relationships, crippling self-doubt and unspeakable fears about whether my life was good enough.  As I drove down familiar roads watching young woman walking and going about their day, I wondered how many of them are experiencing the same things that did? And did they even realize what was possible for their lives? The walls you build around yourself to function in NY can be very tough and for a long time, I thought I needed them to be safe emotionally. But, oh what a difference a year can make!



Imagination is defined as ” the creative ability to form images, ideas, and sensations in the mind without any immediate input of the senses (such as seeing or hearing).” Imagination is a muscle that not everyone is blessed with. I have always had an active imagination so seeing what is not physically present comes naturally. But sometimes, when a part of you is wounded, your imaging faculty becomes sluggish and unclear – weighed down by the layers of pain, doubt and fear. Similar to a body weighed down by excess fat, you must shed the burdens in order to see the definition of the muscle and strengthen it. I have spent the past year strengthening this muscle that I allowed to go unused for many years due to fear, pain and doubt. Imagining what is possible for your life when you do not believe you are worthy of it is nearly impossible! BUT, you can overcome it.  There are 3 steps that I took CONSISTENTLY for a full year to unlock my hindered imagination:

Writing Down my Limiting Beliefs

This process was uncomfortable – period! I did not want to do it and a lot of guilt surfaced in the process. Seeing on paper the thoughts I held as law was very telling and exposing. I had no choice but to wrestle with it and accept them as mine.

Writing Down the Opposite of those Beliefs

Once confronted with these limiting beliefs, I re-wrote them with the words, “It is possible…” and then wrote the opposite of those beliefs. Once fully written, I spoke these renewed beliefs out loud every day in front of a mirror.

Attaching a vision to those New Beliefs

And finally, I needed to delete the old images associated with the old belief systems. You know what I mean – the vision you hold of yourself as always being fat, or a poor communicator or a failure in business. I cancelled those images and injected a renewed vision for my life! My vision was detailed and one that moved me to action. I allowed myself to remain in that vision for at least 15 minutes per day in order for a new narrative to be downloaded within me.

So where did all this lead me?


This image may appear to be an empty room, but for me it is a dream realized. On Monday of the same week, I drew a sketch of this very room…before I ever knew I would be in it. I drew myself standing before woman speaking to them about their wellness and the importance of investing in it. In 5 days, my imagination became reality! When I say that I sketched this occasion, I mean down to the seating configuration! The power of the imagination! Being able to stand there and encourage woman who were hungry for better possibility in their lives was beyond amazing – it was filling! I felt emotionally and spiritually full after that day because I knew at that moment that my entire life was about to change. I knew that my purpose and path were established and that I could move forward is faith and conviction.

It is a wonderful place to be…

Are you using your TOOLS?

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No matter what situation you find yourself experiencing in life, there is a tool required to successfully overcome it. And the unfortunate thing is that many people get in the thick of the situation and realize that they have no idea how to use the tools available to them.

A tool is defined as “a device or implement, especially one held in the hand, used to carry out a particular function”. Doctors have tools. Lawyers have tools. Architects have tools. Builders have tools. Writers have tools. Artists have tools. Everyone who creates in this world has TOOLS. And that includes YOU!

What would happen if a doctor had the instruments available to sew up your wound, yet had no idea how to use it? That is what many of us look like in the spiritual realm. God has provided us with every possible resource to live a prosperous and abundant life. We pray and ask for His help and when it provides it, we do nothing with it. Why is that? Well, here are a few that I have come to understand:

We don’t know what a tool is

We don’t know we have them

We don’t believe in them

Let’s unpack each one of these…



When we look at a hammer, we know that it is used to hit something else with. When we look at a ruler, we know that it is used to measure distance with. But, let’s consider for a moment that you didn’t know these basic things. What if you used the hammer to cook with, or used the ruler as an instrument? Is it possible to use these tools for these purposes? Yes. Is this the correct, intended use? No. Will the benefits be the same? No. The same is true for the spiritual tools provided for us by God. The tools of our spoken word, our faith, and the power in our beliefs.

Our spoken word has the ability to create. We are made in God’s image and He created EVERYTHING with the spoken word. And if we are unaware that our words create our reality, we will mindlessly speak words that we do not really want to manifest – “I can’t handle this!” or “I wish everyone would leave me alone!”. Consciously, we know this is not what we want, but the subconscious mind has NO sense of humor and will take this repetitive statement as fact. The misuse of this valuable tool will yield results that touch every area of your life.


Have you ever met someone who was a billionaire and didn’t know it? They are living a regular life, doing regular things with regular people. They expect regular things to happen in their lives and don’t really expect much from themselves and others. Then, one day, the message is delivered that they are actually wealthy and all their funds have been in an account awaiting their authorization to release it! Can you image that? Everything you could POSSIBILITY need has always been available to you yet, you did not know you had access. Well, that is the majority of the people walking on the Earth. One thing you MUST understand – there is NO LACK with God. If you are living a life in alignment with His will, you have NO lack. I understand that the natural world around you may say something different, but that is not the truth. The truth is this world is abundant and we need only ask and believe to receive what we desire. But, when we have not done the work to discover these truths, we walk through this life as a unaware billionaire.


I believe that this position is the worst of them all. Ignorance can be shifted with revelation and reception of truth. There is very little to be done with rejection of truth when it is rooted in hurt and lack of understanding. You may hear many people proclaim, “It’s not that deep! You don’t need to do all of that.” Many people do not believe that the actions they take and the words they speak have lasting impact on the world around them – including family and friends. They accept a belief that their actions only impact themselves and no one should care what they do. They see no connection between themselves and their neighbor and they end up missing out on the beauty of connection. When a door is closed, you should not force it open – especially when it has been closed on purpose. Forcing open a closed-door damages not only the door, but the thing used to force it open! Leave the information at the door and believe that one day, they will open it and let the information in.

So as you are walking out your journey in life, figure out what tools you need in order to live the life you desire. It does not just ‘happen’…there is WORK to be done once you have activated your FAITH to BELIEVE it is POSSIBLE!


After being away from writing for some time, I woke up this morning with a strong desire to write. Not that I have not BEEN writing, but my intentions for writing changed briefly and I began to wonder why. Why would I stop doing something that brought me fulfillment and purpose? As I began to ponder these thoughts, I began reflecting over the last few months of my life.

My 40th year has been a BIG one! Not just because for the obvious reasons, but because this is the year when all the masks were ripped off and the layers of paint stripped away. It was a year of discovery, revelation and exposure…for myself and the people connected to me.


It is a strange space to be in…all that you believed to be true is now on this examining table being poked and prodded. WHO told me that what I desired was impossible? WHO convinced me that living ‘just above surviving’ was God’s best for me?

The dreams you had for yourself have now been exposed as imposters. WHO convinced me that sitting at a desk making someone else’s bank account grow was my purpose? WHO told me that business was not for me? WHEN did I dream these ‘dreams’?

The reflection in the mirror is now shown to be an image of someone you never really knew and wonder how she got there! WHEN did I start believing that health and wellness was for ‘them’ and not for me? WHO told me that I could never break my addiction to sugar? WHY did ‘she’ look like a stranger after 40 years?

I am sitting on my deck right now admiring the beautiful sky, smelling the grills of neighbors begin to smoke and listening to the birds all around me ( and some AC condensers as well!)  I am grateful for the life that I get to live…at least now I am. This time last year, I had a new house FULL of people and I felt alone…I felt unknown and unsure. To look at me, you would never know it, but I was just a shell. I was a shell of unknown potential and power just existing in time.

I thought I had DIRECTION for my life, but it was just DESPERATION. I was desperate to be in a different space than I was the year before because I could not bear another year of the same.

I thought I had PURPOSE for being alive, but it was just PANIC. I did not want to die before my time so, I grabbed for anything that I could connect with that would seem to make a difference in the world…even if I was not passionate about it. At least I was doing ‘SOMETHING’.


Can you relate to any of this? I’m sure I am not alone out here…

One month after my 40th birthday, I made an investment in my wellbeing. I decided to allow someone to coach and teach me how to bring out who I truly am. To learn how to discover ‘Dawn’. And of course, I was skeptical and doubting and worrisome and concerned. I thought to myself, “What can YOU teach me that I can’t discover on my own??” I very quickly discovered that the answer to that arrogant question was ‘A LOT”! The level of unbelief I lived in for 40 years was UNBELIEVABLE! As I write this now, I am amazed that I managed this long with it! But, I am aware of the reason …grace! It was the grace of God that kept me as I journeyed the path to self. The path that would confirm what He has been trying to get me to believe for so long.


One thing you MUST understand. You will never live the life of your dreams if you don’t first BELIEVE in the POSSIBILITY of that life. You can dream about it, talk about, create vision boards of it and pray on it. All great things to do! BUT, none of it matters without belief. And not just belief that is real…but belief in the possibility of it being real for YOU! Are you one of those people who can believe great things for the lives of others, but not yourself? (I’m raising my own hand!) That was me! I could see the greatness in others, yet doubt the greatness that GOD placed within me. Not based on my schooling, career accomplishments, parental successes or health goals….but pure blessing from a loving Creator. That sounds crazy but it is so common among so many woman between the ages of 25-45. There’s something about that age range…we are believing for greatness, but doubting ourselves at the same time. Double mindedness will get you NOWHERE and that is where my life was at that time…nowhere. And I desired more for myself and my family.

Today, the woman I am is an answer to YEARS of desperate prayer…the ones I attached strong belief to. I asked GOD to end the cycle of poverty, lack and sickness with me. That it would not go past me into the next generation. I was a new mom when that prayer was spoken and today my 16-year-old son amazes me with his mindset, belief and personality. He is so comfortable in his own skin and has definite goals, dreams and desires for his future. And he WILL achieve them! I firmly believe that my desire to shift and renew my mind and the WORK I put in to make it a reality changed the course of our lives. Not because I handled everything well, but because God is gracious and faithful to hear our hearts and respond to our faith.

I have emerged from the basement of my life to fully embody this vessel I have been blessed with. I am confident that the words that I speak and write will be a blessing to all who read and listen. I am confident that I have a gift to give that no one else can deliver. I believe that I am the one to do it for the people assigned to my path and I invite you to journey along with me!

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Along this journey, I have discovered a passion to remind woman that the dreams and desires that have for their lives are POSSIBLE. I plan on using the gifts, talents and abilities that God blessed me with to do so. One thing I know about myself is this –  I want to see other people live well! And I will use the remaining time I have on this Earth to do my part to ensure that happens!

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Do You Want to Get Well? Take Positive Action!

Today, we continue this journey through a very motivational scripture in the Bible. We will discuss the next step – Take positive action!

“Jesus told him, ‘Stand up, pick up your mat, and walk!’ Instantly, the man was healed! He rolled up his sleeping mat and began walking!” John 5:8-9a


This week, we are talking about taking positive action. After hearing the excuses and knowing that this man has a life that does not match his reality just waiting for him to receive, Jesus SPOKE direct, sharp words of instruction:

Stand up

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Let’s break down these 3 steps and apply them to your our life.

Stand up

There comes a time in your wellness journey when you realize that ‘enough is enough!’ I have been in this position long enough and I want MORE! Have you ever taken a ride down the “Lazy River” in an amusement park? You just allow the flow of the river to take you where IT wants to take you. Now, imagine that your child has gotten too far away from you and you want to get closer to them quickly. What do you do? YOU STAND UP! You want to go from where you are to where you want to be immediately, right?

Friend, I have to share this very plainly…

You have been sitting down accepting the ebb and flow of the lazy river of life. When you are ready to go a different direction, you make a conscious decision and plant your feet and your faith for this shift. This man, who was an invalid for 38 years and living in the place where healing is stirred, DECIDED that today was the day his healing would come. I know he decided because he stepped out of his comfort zone and stood up after lying by the pool most of his life. He took positive action!

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What has been your crutch for most of your life? What is that thing that you have leaned on to support your lack of action? For this man, it was his bed perfectly positioned by the Pool of Bethesda. He was close enough to the pool, yet just far enough to make excuses for his lack of effort. Personally, I have used my lack of knowledge in a particular subject to be my crutch – “I can’t do business because I don’t know marketing! Everyone else knows so much more than me!”  The truth is – I can do business and be successful because I have DECIDED to learn more about marketing and perfect my craft. I have decided to take that comfortable fear and keep moving forward with it. This invalid picked up his sleeping mat (his crutch) and moved forward from his old place of comfort towards his new belief system.


When you close your eyes and imagine your ideal life, what do you see? How far off is that vision from your physical reality? That gap, however large or small, is your walk! In order to walk, you need belief, direction and confidence. All of these components are within you right now. There is NO THING you need to wait for and NO ONE to wait on! Just walk…


Thirty-eight years is a very long time to allow excuses and fear to shape your life…

One day is too long to allow excuses and fear to shape your life…

Today, choose to stand up, pick up your ‘mat’ and walk!

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And in an instant…

Chance encounters are never by chance! Last night, while listening to an online class on essential oils (you can email me for more on that!), I connected the dots of my health and healing journey in a very random way. I tell you…Being available and teachable will bless your life!

The presenter for this class shared her personal healing journey and as I sat and listened, I knew I had to connect with her directly! She is on the other side of my current challenges and I want freedom from them! I stayed up very late to listen to the entire class with the intention of messenging her afterwards to ask for assistance. As I gathered from the class, she was willing and available to talk. I absolutely love people who are passionate about people!

We finally connected on the phone in the midst of her mommy duties and my work schedule. I shared how I enjoyed her class and felt like we had a similar health and healing journey. She began to share more with me about her challenges and struggles and how she used natural remedies but our shared challenge was a direct result of diet choices. As I jotted down notes and suggestions, I began to smile. Not because I was happy about the restrictive and challenging lifestyle I was about to enter, but because for the first time in 10 years, I did not feel like a standalone wierdo! Someone else experienced my unique pains, fears and frustrations and OVERCAME THEM! It was totally possible to be free and clear of this dis-ease within my body.

Do you know how frustrating and defeating it is to life with a health challenge that is bothersome enough to impact your daily life YET not ‘serious’ enough to warrant alarm from those around you? You are tempted to devalue your discomfort and push aside your pain. Today, I was able to reach out (virtually) and lock arms with a fellow overcomer! And yes, I said ‘fellow’ because I have overcome this challenge already! By unwavering faith, I declare it done.

It is impossible to overcome alone. Two are better than one as the Bible states and a cord of three is not easily broken. My Father and my friends will keep me accountable and focused on keepongy promise to live a sacred, whole and healed life. It is my birthright and I will accept nothing less EVER again. It is my time! And, I believe there is someone reading this post who knows that it is their time as well.

So what is it for you?

Committing to your health?

Healing your relationships?

Finally starting that business you dreamed about?

Releasing debt and building your wealth legacy?

Spiritual connection with your Creator?

What is it TIME for you to commit fully to accomplishing or overcoming?

In an instant, when you have made up your mind to take the first step, your answer will be presented to you.

Let’s DO it and FINISH it in 2017!


Do You Want to Be Well – Excuses…

Let’s continue our talk on the topic, “Do you want to be well?” Last post, we touched on the condition in which the Messiah found a lame man at the Pool of Bethesda and the compassion He showed as He asked, “Do you want to be well?” Now, here is the response:

“Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.” – John 5: 7


Have you ever listened to someone that only complains about what others will or will not do for them? Or have you had a conversation with a person who does not see their own faults, yet can clearly define the faults of others? How do you feel about  this person? I often think of this verse when I am in the midst of those who can only see what they do not have. Although I understand the human limits of our natural vision, we must see farther than that! We must yearn to see the truth beyond our natural reality.


Sometimes, I believe we lack faith because we don’t know our worth. Think about it…

The Messiah sees your condition and knows the pain of your journey. He comes to you specifically and directly asks you a simple question. You do not answer the question, but instead you complain about not having help to get healing.

You were offered healing…

Yet, you rejected the invitation to be healed.

Doesn’t that sound silly? Who would ever do that?! Do any of these scenarios sound familiar:

Have you ever purchased exercise equipment only to never use it more than once?

Have you ever registered for a training course to further your business only to cancel it days before because the travel is too inconvenient?

Have you ever purchased vitamins and supplements that would support your health journey yet never actually taken them?

These are all examples of ways you were offered healing, yet rejected the invitation to receive the actually healing. You wanted it, but didn’t desire it. Wanting does not require commitment or responsibility…it is very close to wishing. But desire! That is a totally different thing. Desire is ignited when you have accepted the truth that IT IS POSSIBLE and then take action to acquire it. The lame man only wanted to be healed before Messiah came into his life…it was just a wish with no real possibility of possession.


As I continue to study these scriptures, I realized that one very important shift occurred. This man initially heard ‘a man’ asking a basic question. He did not realize WHO this man was and the authority He possessed. Once that connection was made, he did not hesitate to believe that his deepest desire was possible! He acted and believed and WALKED!

Excuses are directly tied to your level of belief. They are fueled by a deep seated doubt within your heart that only God can expose, remove and replace with power and purpose. Take some time today to think back on areas in your life where you make excuses for not believing. You know exactly what I am talking about! Now, what is one thing can you do right now to believe that it is possible and WALK towards it?

I will back back next week to discuss the next phase in the wellness journey – TAKE POSITIVE ACTION.

Until next time….

Live WELL!

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